I just cant seem to get excited about anythig. Nothing surprises me anymore. I just feel tired whole day. I do not want to do anything just lie down on my bed  and do nothing. I make plans to get out of this boring routine but i cant seem to work on plans they remain just plans.
I want to do so many things, I want to be so many things but this thing does not let me do anything.

Something about me

I feel like there is something which is left behind .Something that I want dearly but I dont know about it.
Something that would complete me, will help me, calme me, sooth me.
Some part of me feels relieved when i sing classical, when I read about ancient India and gods .
Classical music produces vibrations in body which help me calm myself . I will this is the thing which i was looking for . It feels as if the vibrations of my body now are in proper order . An indescricable  pleasure.
I just really want to learn them.